Today I’m overwhelmed. I had every indicator that I would be feeling “almost normal” (whatever that means) today and so on Tuesday I began making a list. I figured by the time today rolled around (one week after my last treatment) I’d be feeling energized and ready to tackle some open items. Now, the mother of all to do lists is sitting beside me and I have exactly nothing crossed off.
So I’m overwhelmed. It’s like my head is full of bees. And not the drone, worker kind either, the big fat lazy queens. Just sittin’ there all buzzin’ and whatnot. Except I’m not even making honey. Does the queen bee make the honey? I don’t even know. I’ll add it to the list of things to look up. What’s worse, my office is a gosh-awful mess. I have papers nearly everywhere (the ceiling alone is without paperwork), I have receipts that need to be inputted, I have binders and books laying around open to various pages that matter – or rather mattered at one point. File drawer are open, file folders are out, CDs are lying around and I’m just feeling under the pile.
So I’ve devised a new strategy. I’m calling it my “one foot radius” strategy. Instead of working on my list, I’m going to work on any and everything within a one foot radius of me, my chair and my computer. I know it may not seem like much but you haven’t seen my desk. I figure if I can get that done, it will be enough honey for now.
I have a phone meeting at two and then I’m going to get started.